I have set up my hugely generous husbands X-mass gift to me. and now I have to prove my worthiness. I resolve to work hard and not be completely sidetracked by housework and life in general. I also resolve not to be overwhelmed what would be the point in that!!

I will warn all my family and friends what a selfish person I'm going to become.......I'm not going to lose my rag at the kids for being messy little creatures either. I will work at Marchants and revel in the day I can spend there doing blissful and straightforward work.

Giant slide for Greenwich Park going all the way from the top of one tree hill and caressing hillside whilst the hapless slider comes careering down it! it would give you the feeling of being joyfully out of control that I'm sure is good for the soul.

I plugged my kids into electronic mummy's and escaped into my studio blasted 'Kings of Leon' I tried to feel it. I know it's not sophisticated but it gets me going..... what does that say about me. unpretentious, or just a bit thick?

More of the same.....ohhh dear.

I really hope I'm not stuck with these.....I hope eventually I get that stunning idea I've been waiting for!